a YeaR..

thinking to remove this blog
it's been a year
I dint update anything

yea
this blog is just for you
wrote everything and just for you

u are leave
leave from my life
my fairytale


and Im still love you

I love You

still...




I know Im stupid

Chen WaiWai
you Baka!!!

I LOVE YOU

LOVE YOU THE MOST

EVEN U DONT LOVE ME

OR YOU LEAVE ME

IM STILL LOVE YOU




i

really




miss you badly

Over~

our relationship is
over



ya..

since you went oversea
nothing i can do
and i just can let you go

now

i try to let it be
and just use to it

i still miss you
but when u told me
our story end already

then
what is over is over


You are the first
and even though i hope you are the last
but who know what will happen on the next day?


3 month passed
your number is not in service already
but i'm still missing you

even i deleted all the pic
chat log
sms
but you still in my mind
fully
deeply


how are you recently?
would you miss me like what i do so?

you are not around
and i really miss you



papaya
i miss you

even i told myself i got to forget you

i think
i can put down our relationship
but i cant forget you

i think


i think


.
.
.

愛情的模樣

愛情
到底是啥模樣？

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又開始想你了

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

昨天拉肚子拉整天
也許應該說是前天
現在已經是29號大半夜了

肚子很痛很痛
跟朋友出去回來之後
就進房間
翻來翻去
上廁所
臉色很慘白
連說話的力氣都沒有

很怕
會不會是腸胃炎
需不需要去醫院吊水

開始胡思亂想
也想起了你

好想你
你在哪裡
我很需要你


還好我是在堂哥家
如果是在kampar
一定是死了也沒有人知道

很痛
很痛

但是心裡也很痛


剛剛上網留了offline msg給你
說有東西要跟你說

我說不出口


我問了一些無關緊要的東西

但是卻說不出口

說不出我真正想說的


你察覺到了吧
察覺到了我的異常

我該怎么辦？

你說...

你問我
怎么把我寫給你的文章delete了
我怎么回答？

【我以為你沒有看到
所以我delete了...】

or

【我以為你看了不高興
所以我delete了...】


其實那天要delete的時候
猶豫了一下
要不要save個備份

結果
忍下心來
delete

卻後悔了

那一篇
我寫了很久下
想了很多東西
也怕你會不喜歡

part1的蛋糕
雖然不是marble cheese
但是我不會忘記
你喜歡的
是marble cheese

secret recipe的
marble cheese

你的生日
過得快樂嗎？

我不知道
你說看到我寫得很開心
一邊看一邊笑

結果原來我瞎操心了
你有看
還笑了


我卻以為你沒看
或者不開心

你沒有特別開心
生日你去clubbing

但是過後卻回家陪我
不算陪我啦
跟我聊到天光

越來越喜歡你了
但是卻必須學著
收放自如

哪一篇文章
還好你看過了
不然我真的會
遺憾一輩子

你問我有沒有備份
我知道其實你很痛心
當你告訴我你看了
我很驚訝

當你問我怎么delete了
我的心揪了一下

那是我送給你的23歲禮物啊
我怎么那么忍心
delete了

我怎么了

你問
是不是對你失望

恩
很傷心
很失望

因為我等
等不到reply
等不到comment

之後也沒有sms


但是你看了
我很高興你看到了
謝謝你
dear

你跟我說了
好久沒有說的
I Love You

yes
I Love You
too


我希望我們可以幸福
雖然不一定有以後

還有3天
一周年


你會記得這個一周年嗎？


-Dear I Love You too-

Nothing Can Do?

I know I am Useless
I know I am a Fool
I know I such as a Stupid

but who care?
just ignore it?
and ask
May I?

Stupid

hey stop doing this Stupid thing please

Sorry

I can't


Do you know what I am talking about?

sorry I also don't know and so even you


please stop doing this stupid thing
and just get out of my life


so Tired to do
so Hard to do
Complicated
so Damn
so Fucker

and Damn Shit


I know that I am crazy
I am happy
I am Cheater

I don't even know me
Do You Know Me?

Just keep Jealous

Jealous

and

Jealous


Nothing to Do

What Can I do

tell me please


Just

Want

To

Stop

It





May


I
?

Apart

Baby Baby
We Are Not Apart
But We Are Not Belong Together

You Got Your Own World
I Can't Even Go In Your World
I Can't Even Understand You

Baby Dear
We Are Not Apart
But We Are Not Belong Together

I Try My Best To Love You
Give You Everything You Want
I Need You I Care You
I Love You

When Will We Apart
I Don't Know
And I Don't Wanna Know

It Is Hard
I Always Make You Angry
But I Cant Make You Smile

What Am I Suppose To Do
Baby Tell Me Please
I Don't Wanna Lose You
Don't Wanna Let You Go

It Is Too Late To Let You Know
How Much I Love You

If I Let You Go
You Will Feel More Happier
Baby
Just Fly Away
Don't Look Back

I Don't Wanna Let You See My Tear
Don't Said Goodbye
You Know I Dislike You To Say Bye

Get Back Your Freedom
Find Your Happiness
I Will Be Here
Pray For You

幸福vs伤害

如果说在爱情里
能把幸福跟伤害
分出来的话
那么
你给与我的
就是
1%的幸福
99%的伤害

如果
我小心翼翼地去呵护
那渺小的1%
那么
它是否会升级呢？

还是继续的
留在那1%的位子