Monday, December 29, 2008

愛情的模樣

愛情
到底是啥模樣?

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又開始想你了

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昨天拉肚子拉整天
也許應該說是前天
現在已經是29號大半夜了

肚子很痛很痛
跟朋友出去回來之後
就進房間
翻來翻去
上廁所
臉色很慘白
連說話的力氣都沒有

很怕
會不會是腸胃炎
需不需要去醫院吊水

開始胡思亂想
也想起了你

好想你
你在哪裡
我很需要你


還好我是在堂哥家
如果是在kampar
一定是死了也沒有人知道

很痛
很痛

但是心裡也很痛


剛剛上網留了offline msg給你
說有東西要跟你說

我說不出口


我問了一些無關緊要的東西

但是卻說不出口

說不出我真正想說的


你察覺到了吧
察覺到了我的異常

我該怎么辦?

Saturday, November 1, 2008

你說...

你問我
怎么把我寫給你的文章delete了
我怎么回答?

【我以為你沒有看到
所以我delete了...】

or

【我以為你看了不高興
所以我delete了...】


其實那天要delete的時候
猶豫了一下
要不要save個備份

結果
忍下心來
delete

卻後悔了

那一篇
我寫了很久下
想了很多東西
也怕你會不喜歡

part1的蛋糕
雖然不是marble cheese
但是我不會忘記
你喜歡的
是marble cheese

secret recipe的
marble cheese

你的生日
過得快樂嗎?

我不知道
你說看到我寫得很開心
一邊看一邊笑

結果原來我瞎操心了
你有看
還笑了


我卻以為你沒看
或者不開心

你沒有特別開心
生日你去clubbing

但是過後卻回家陪我
不算陪我啦
跟我聊到天光

越來越喜歡你了
但是卻必須學著
收放自如

哪一篇文章
還好你看過了
不然我真的會
遺憾一輩子

你問我有沒有備份
我知道其實你很痛心
當你告訴我你看了
我很驚訝

當你問我怎么delete了
我的心揪了一下

那是我送給你的23歲禮物啊
我怎么那么忍心
delete了

我怎么了

你問
是不是對你失望


很傷心
很失望

因為我等
等不到reply
等不到comment

之後也沒有sms


但是你看了
我很高興你看到了
謝謝你
dear

你跟我說了
好久沒有說的
I Love You

yes
I Love You
too


我希望我們可以幸福
雖然不一定有以後

還有3天
一周年


你會記得這個一周年嗎?


-Dear I Love You too-

Friday, October 24, 2008

Nothing Can Do?

I know I am Useless
I know I am a Fool
I know I such as a Stupid

but who care?
just ignore it?
and ask
May I?

Stupid

hey stop doing this Stupid thing please

Sorry

I can't


Do you know what I am talking about?

sorry I also don't know and so even you


please stop doing this stupid thing
and just get out of my life


so Tired to do
so Hard to do
Complicated
so Damn
so Fucker

and Damn Shit


I know that I am crazy
I am happy
I am Cheater

I don't even know me
Do You Know Me?

Just keep Jealous

Jealous

and

Jealous


Nothing to Do

What Can I do

tell me please


Just

Want

To

Stop

It





May


I
?

Friday, September 26, 2008

Apart

Baby Baby
We Are Not Apart
But We Are Not Belong Together

You Got Your Own World
I Can't Even Go In Your World
I Can't Even Understand You

Baby Dear
We Are Not Apart
But We Are Not Belong Together

I Try My Best To Love You
Give You Everything You Want
I Need You I Care You
I Love You

When Will We Apart
I Don't Know
And I Don't Wanna Know

It Is Hard
I Always Make You Angry
But I Cant Make You Smile

What Am I Suppose To Do
Baby Tell Me Please
I Don't Wanna Lose You
Don't Wanna Let You Go

It Is Too Late To Let You Know
How Much I Love You

If I Let You Go
You Will Feel More Happier
Baby
Just Fly Away
Don't Look Back

I Don't Wanna Let You See My Tear
Don't Said Goodbye
You Know I Dislike You To Say Bye

Get Back Your Freedom
Find Your Happiness
I Will Be Here
Pray For You


Thursday, September 25, 2008

幸福vs伤害

如果说在爱情里
能把幸福跟伤害
分出来的话
那么
你给与我的
就是
1%的幸福
99%的伤害

如果
我小心翼翼地去呵护
那渺小的1%
那么
它是否会升级呢?

还是继续的
留在那1%的位子

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Some People...

Just now dear told me
he ask his assistant to help him to buy fund
then now earn money already
then he ask him to sell it

but then his assistant said:
I forgot to help you buy it

wah
this kind of people

dear so angry
cause his assistant no buy also dint tell him
some more
after so many days only tell him he dint buy it

wah wah wah

dear said
my dad ask me to fire him

woow
then I said that
nevermind la
he is first time to make mistake is it?
if still got next time then only fire him ok

then dear told me that
just now he really very angry la
cause he dint buy also dint tell him


don't know how to say this kind of people
dear don't angry lo

next time can earn back the money wan ok
muacks



-I Won't Tell You More, I Will Only Tell You How Much I LOVE You-

touch...

baby
thanks for the video
I like it so much
thanks
really thanks you

although we got promise that
can't said thanks to each other
but
I really want to thank you

yesterday night
you said you want to send a thing to let me see
but I don't know what is that
then you ask me to promise you
after viewing,
delete it
I said ok

but after finish transfer
after I view it
I don't wanna delete it

So Touch
you know?

no wonder
you ask me why my friendster set private
and then ask my favorite song
then still ask me to send you the pictures that baobei jad help me edit one

you so cute
really pretty cute
^^

I ask you
Can I don't delete the video?
you said cannot
I promise you already
so I must delete it
cause the video is produce for yourself to view one
sometime
you feel tired during working
so you wanna save the video in your phone
and then you can view it
when you miss me

bendan
then I said
I wanna record my sound for you
when you miss me
open it and listen it
^^

you know I like it
so you said you present me the video
hehe
thanks dear

you said you repeat so many time
repeat and repeat
haha
from 1am till 2am

this few day
we chatting till next day morning
4am something
bendan
don't forgot you still need to wake up early

every time after off msn
you will sms me
hehe

still got 32days and 42days to go
your birthday and our 1st anniversary
hope you won't forgot our anniversary
^^

dear
I love You




-You Are Who The One I Want To Hold Tight,Hug Tight-

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Finally..HuuLeeh!

Finally
Finally!!!
I finish my exam d!!!

yeah!
damn damn damn
HAPPY!!

yeah!!

although the finance paper I don't know how to do
wahaha
but sure got 25 marks la..@@
lolz

whatever!
I finally finish my exam!
Yeah!
tomorrow go back to hometown d
=(

yerr..
Qingfu wahwah
you dint tell me earlier tomorrow got gathering la
if you all inform me earlier then I can rush to KL today lo
but it's too late lo..
my bus ticket is tomorrow geh

baby
why the message I send to you can deliver to your handphone geh?
your sister uses your handphone again ah?
I though you come back jor tim
=(

when you want come back leh?
I miss you so much...



-Don't Leave Me Alone-

Monday, September 15, 2008

yeah!

wahaha
wahaha
wahahahahah
!!!!

YeAh!
left 1 more subject
finance
then I can get back my freedom!
Yeah!
wanna shopping la
=s
but the day after my last paper
I will straight go back my hometown
T,T

Can I said :
"No! I don't want to go back!
I want to shopping!
My Nike bag
My Nike shoe
Argh!"
Can I?

aizz
dear
I wanna celebrate your birthday with you
you know?
but maybe that moment
I am not in K.L.

I wanna celebrate the 1st anniversary
but
I wonder that you still remember it or not

I hope that
you still remember it ok
don't make me feel disappointed ok
you can forget my birthday
but please
don't forget our 1st anniversary

today exam math
wakaka
don't know how to do
but
don't know why
I don't have any feeling
weird..
no sad
no disappointed
but I am very exciting wahaha
don't ask me why
cause I also don't know why
haha

Yeah..
left 1 more subject..
dear go Vietnam outstation 1 weeks already
faster come back la..
without you
my handphone become useless already
can take it go to throw dog already haha

dear dear faster come back ya..
I miss you so much




-Just Wanna You To Be My Only One-

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

First paper

My first paper - Cost accounting
on 8th september =.=ll

This paper huh..
emm..
I very sure that I can pass this paper
but..
I won't get a high mark

The questions
not difficult to do its
but I don't know why I can't do it

After exam
I felt very upset and down

during the exam
got happen something make me very unhappy and angry

a guy
who sit in front me
don't know why always turn his head to the back
and look me here

hey man
this is examination please
focus on your paper la!

I don't know what he want to do
for the beginning
I thought that his thing was falling
so I take a look
but nothing under my table
so I don't wanna bother him
and I don't have such much time to bother others

but then
he suddenly turn to the back then said:
"number 1 b"
walao eh!

hey!
I don't even know you ok
how dare you to ask a stranger the answer
some more
the examination is in the process please
You want ask
ask other la why ask me?
stupid

you want die is you own business la
don't try to push me into the water
damn!

after exam
I tell sushi
"sushi, just now the fellow who sit in front me
ask me the answer you know!"
bla bla bla..


until I reach home
I still #%@$@#!#$
really mad

after exam really feel very tired
and no mood to eat
aizz
wanna go to rest
but cant sleep at all
sms to my dear
ask him remember to eat his lunch
he ask me is it ok
I'm no ok dear =(

then dear ask me dont think too much
everything will be ok ^^


dear dear
yesterday you go to Vietnam for outstation
once you are gone
my digi sim card broken already
haha
you see
it complain whit me la..
it not allow you go
haha

but hoh
the message you send to me geh
all missing
TmT

sob sob sob..
dear sorry..
Muackss
don't kaolui in vietnam huh!
miss me

I Miss You
haha


next paper
12th Sept - Computer studies
13th Sept - sociology

gambateh!


-the happiness around you,around me,around us-


Monday, September 1, 2008

Final Exam Coming Soon

Final exam coming soon
scare + afraid
=(

U life
so stress
don't wanna waste my parent's money
but I am wasting now
shit

don't like to study
but I must do it

dady
I know it is hard
you working everyday
just want to give us a happiness life
don't want us to worry everything

You give me everything
my sweet sweet home
my brother
my sister

what I want you will try to give me
buy for me

but I always disappointed you
Dady
I am sorry
and I love you so

and my Mumy
Mum
I love you too
although I didn't tell you
because I don't know how to tell you
and always hurt you

when I was young
I felt that
both of you not care bout me
we seldom talk
but we always argue

I know
Both of you worry bout me
both of you care bout me
I really know it
really

so
I would like to say
Dad Mum
I am sorry
and
I Love You

need to do revision
I will put my effort on study!
I want pass pass pass!!

pray for me!

good luck for me!

ah zhak!!



-I Just Wanna Let You Know, Actually I Am Loving You-

JiuJiu's New Blog

I would like to open a new blog long long time already
but till now
only open a new blog
haha

actualy I got many blog lo..
but hoh..

no privacy

lolx..

JiuJiu's new blog

blogspot
wahaha..

dont ask me why I suddenly wanna open a new blog lo
no reason
no why
no why

haha

Today after chat with dear dear

then still no feel sleepy wor
345am jor gua
I think la

then my dear hoh straight offline
and good night kiss also dint give me

T.T

nevermind la
I know dear very sleepy and tired already
forgive you la
and give you a kiss har

Muackss

haha

don't know what can write lo..

congratz again la haha

yeah
I got new blog already

but maybe I will seldom update haha

why?

cause

cause

aiyo
I am lazy mah
I admit la k
haha

ok la.
5am jor..

wanna sleep edy

my dark eyes circle

T.T

dear dear don't have this problem geh lo..

so prefect haha
yerr...

pimple also don't have
T.T

why my face so..

so..

argh!!

sleep early

drink more water!

wakaka

dear..

I will go to your dream now
haha

waitin for me
muackss




-I Wanna Hold Your Hand Till The End Of My Life-